Rah Times

I knew you once thought about me. I felt it, picked up the phone. Only then, to place it back down. After the feeling to call you had passed. Later my father explained my urge to me. In that moment, your thoughts were of me. As you reflected, my desire, the drive to call. At that exact time, was extremely strong. The deterrent was the annoyance you displayed. When I made the exact last phone call to you. Ever since, I've fought my intuition to reach-out. Make that call to say, that I cared about you. I have explained and enlightened as best I could. Hope I did not leave you with doubts or confusion. You see my tendency is always to do for others. To the detriment of me, why it's hard to simply leave. Visit ruthspoetry.rahtimes.com/ for more on the Author.

My daughter finished rehab successfully yesterday. Today she turned eighteen. I am pleased, and I sincerely hope that she places her focus on finishing high school. When I was around the age that she is, I left my parents to come live in the US and stayed with friends. I can recall some of the frustrations I felt that came from being away from home, although I was never a wild child. Upon observation, no one could conclude that I was away from my parents. I never had a desire for what attract others and I was always intensely goal oriented. I know that my situation was hugely different from hers. Still, my desire is for her to over come whatever gets in her way of attaining an education. My temptation is that as I consider that she will need a lot of support in order to accomplish that basic task, I want to be there in the way, I had been. like a mother hen. I pushed my feeling aside to get her the help she needed, even as I started to develop health issues. I'm sti...

My life is on the line. Would you purposefully leave me? Will God continue to abandon? Has He not already gone? Left me here to suffer, And perhaps to eventually die. He left Jesus, why not me! Although it is said he was selected, A little concern, a little sympathy. All for the woman, not the angelic being. That is currently the situation, but not for long, Unknown to the world, but I'll announce it. And get a display of genuine affection. Visit ruthspoetry.rahtimes.com/ for more on the Author.

When you said, you loved me. I did not answer because of Where I was and my surroundings. After all, I have written, the poems. Still, you do not understand, is wondering? It was not your lack of expression, or mine. Or your display, it was not the right time. What my conscious mind was not aware of, Subconsciously I knew, but had to move on. Did not quite grasp that the moment was now. Quite honestly thought it was back then. You were selected for this very purpose. Your reward will be a whole lot more. I told you before your actions would save Restore my life and this was what I meant. Visit ruthspoetry.rahtimes.com/ for more on the Author.

You should not do or choose to do Based on who and what a person is. That is not honest and actual love. Love has no restrains, is uninhibited. Is what I have been trying to explain. Have been expounding, imparting to you. Genuine love is blind to identity, boundless. Reaches out regardless of doubt, limitless. In the face of opposition, it still persists. Even when consequences, prevails. May or may not be inflicted, yet, it endures. With the absence, of these I am conflicted. I see resistance and indifference, not as love. For of all these things, I am sincerely convinced. Yet, at times, I feel as though you once cared for me. Other times, I don't, for the indications are few. What other travesty need I endure, to be sure? That you truly do love or not love or want me? I’ve repeated myself o’er and o’er. I know love. I just have not seen or felt it given me by you. Not when you leave me to suffer, and not help me. But, I believe my father, that it...

I hurt them as much as they have hurt me by writing about their behaviors. Yet, I am not being forthright and as detailed in explaining. I came here for the experience and based on that I will judge and do judge men. I wish I could tell my friends the truth, but unless they have seen, I cannot do that. I have already revealed more than I should have. Although, some things would be better explained in person. I was extremely apprehensive about writing this article, but felt it important for the sake of my future relationship. My unique difference is that, people live in the moment, but I can see past that. It was what caused me to reach out every time that I did. Yet when they refrained, it confused me. I cannot comprehend how I could choose  any one who does that. Yet, I can, because my current husband was also chosen. For those precise reasons, I do not see any difference in him from I do others. Nothing with me is co-incidental, my path, destiny is al...

A nod, approval for the one I loved. For she was the woman, I wanted most. A smile, a wink for the girl I truly admired. For she, I treasured and mainly sought after. My years, my undivided attention for my wife. To her, I will dedicate the rest of my life. My compassionate blessing, free from strife, For this chase one, when I am at the height of life. A treasure to have and hold, for a long time. On her, I would spend my every, or last dime. As I, the professional ladder climbed, it was her, That remained and was the focus of my mind..