What am I waiting for?

I shifted my weight.
First to one leg then the other.
I twiddled my thumb,
Touching one with the other.
I looked up and all around.
For I was waiting for my lover.
With deep sighs, I sucked in my breath.
I did not want to appear anxious as I was.
Everything within screamed, I had lost him forever.
So what was I waiting for? Transportation, the train!
The vehicle that was going to take me away.
Yet, I wanted for him to appear to reassure me.
That I was his one true lover.
It never happened! So, now I press my nose
Closely to the window and left my mark.
For I was sure his would stay with me, forever.
He never came, never said what I wanted to hear.
I departed, did not get what I went looking for.
I knew the reason for my departure and what kept me.
For all the things, I aspired for and in learning.
It was not people but the things that I wanted to do.
In the end, it was only those that brought satisfaction to me.